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Feb. 9th, 2009

The Force

OOC Rescue Plot info

In the course of things Trever landed himself in a compound dedicated to training young Force Sensitive children for the Empire as well the home of a Dark Jedi (and currently former master) Kree'sha. Kree'sha was preforming experiments on the children trying to create different kinds of Force sensitives. Trever discovered that he and his Twin Kale were the result of some of these experiments and that their family was part of a long term Sith experiment.

What Trever would like to do, and requires help with, is going back to the compound and rescuing the children and then blowing it up to kingdom come.

Jan. 21st, 2009


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Time heals all wounds. Perhaps... perhaps not. Time gives distance to think though. Which I've been doing. It's been like... three months now, I think. I'm not sure really, since Kale and Tobias left. Tobias went home and got his leg fixed. And Kale went somewhere else.

I don't know where he went. It hurts not knowing.

But it's given me time to think about myself and about what happened over the past couple of years. It was fine in the beginning but then it changed when I found Kale. No, he'd already changed a little. There's no one to blame for it. I could blame Carcer or Tobias or Revan or even my father or myself. I could blame the Force for it too. Kree'sha. I think it's one of those things that just doesn't have any blame to attach. It just happened.

Perhaps if things were different, but they're not, so I shouldn't think about it.

Kale wasn't Kale... no, that's not right. Kale was Kale, but a very changed Kale. His Force powers re-emerging along with his psychometry in Revan's house, absorbing all of that. Before that with Zhin-Ja and whatever happened there. He never told me, but I never saw him so angry at a person before. I never saw him know another person before.

He was angry, surrounded by gray and dark siders, absorbing things and then he just got completely overwhelmed. He became someone else with all those different minds in his head. I don't think who he was ever came back. I think he died that day when Tobias cut him off and someone else was left. Someone who only called himself Kale because that's what we called him, who had Kale's memories.

It's probably just wistful thinking on my part though. Kale was Kale. A very hurt down to the soul Kale. Tobias hurt him. Good old noble Tobias. I thought for a while Tobias did it so he'd have someone like him around. I know that's wrong now. Tobias wouldn't hurt a fly if he could help it.

He wants to save the whole world.

What happened, I think, was just the opposite. I think Kale wanted Tobias to hurt as much as he did and I think ... I don't know... I think he did what he could to do that. When he wasn't trapped in his own head and his nightmares. There's no way I can ever know what goes on in his head any more. I don't want to know. I may never know. I may never see him again, him having slunk off into the universe without saying good bye, and me without a way to track him.

I just wish now I knew what to do with my life. It always seemed so clear before, and now I have nothing. No path in front of me. No map or ship.

Force... I just. I just want to get so drunk I can forget all this.

I hate feeling so rudderless and useless.
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Dec. 15th, 2008


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Feet up on his desk, Trever tapped the data pad holding his entire family's information that Akay found. Their entire lineage. Every last bit of data that said they were some freakish genetic experiment for the dark side. And he knew his ancestor too. An ancestor who wanted nothing to do with him, with them, and neither did his father.

All because of Kale's fuck up, slashing Revan with a lightsaber in a probably lucky shot. Probably, because Kale did have Revan and Tobais' memories on how to fight. Still, one hit shouldn't screwed things up like that. Probably Carcer... or probably because Revan just was like that. All because of his dad's fuck up, not doing something about Kale's pyschometry, not shutting it off completely or... something. All because of Kree'sha's meddling with him and Kale. Making them freaks of nature.

He shifted a little, turning on the pad, looking through all the names and dates and notes. Three thousand years... Four thousand years. All... because someone wanted to create a damn line of Force users from one of the most powerful known Force users of the time.

Revan said he killed Bastilla, the mother of their line. But the multiverse was funny like that because the Delvars still existed. Their linage passed down from Dark sider to Dark sider, always tweaking. He sighed and put the pad down.

Trever felt like he should put a stop to this. Let the Delvars stop being an experiment and do whatever it was that normal families did as generations went by.

To do that, of course, would require going back to Kree'sha's strong hold and destroying the computer systems... and her. But there were those kids there... and others who didn't deserve to die. Still, he needed to do something.

Maybe shut down the systems and... well get rid of Kree'sha some how. But not kill her, he thought. It would be better if she suffered as much as he did. As much as Kale did.

Poor Kale, having been driven away from his family, unsure of who and what he was. Trever hoped he'd come back soon. He doubted it. Soul searching took a long time. Trever wondered if they had a soul. They must. But it was broken with Kale being rent from the Force. And if he touched it again, even the echo, they'd try to kill him. And Darth Nihilus would try and take him.

The question became really, was revenge worth it?

Oct. 23rd, 2008

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He left without saying good bye.

I think that's what bothers me the most.

Waking up to an empty bed and not being able to find him.

And now, it's just waking up to an empty bed.
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Oct. 5th, 2008

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Trever held Kale, stroking his hair and kissing his forehead. Kale didn't do anything really, not cry or scream or get angry. He just let Trever hold him, breathing softly. Trever didn't say anything. He knew he didn't need to say anything. He knew that saying anything wouldn't do anything. He knew Kale like he knew himself, and right then Kale needed to be held. They hadn't told anyone yet.

They'd have to, eventually. He supposed their father already knew. He supposed his father knew for a while. Not that it matter. Their father wouldn't have told them one way or the other.

The question then became, what to do?

Kale had him. But not really.

And Kale wouldn't go back to their family. Despite what Tobias said. Kale felt too outside from them. Lost from the Force.

So, he just held Kale and thought about nothing. Trying to figure out what to do would come later.
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Sep. 4th, 2008

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It took Kale, Trever and Tobias a good hour and a half to capture the kittens. The kittens thought it was the greatest game ever and teleported around the house as the three of them scrambled after them. It didn't help that they were able to teleport out of a Force grab. Eventually Tobias managed to convince the kittens that taking a nice long calm nap would be a good thing to do. Trever plopped the kittens in a box and went off to the coffee shop where he promised to meet Charlotte.

Not being able to take the kittens into the shop, he picked a seat away from the hustle and bustle to make sure the kittens would stay asleep. He didn't think that the customers would appreciate a kitten in their coffee.

Jun. 25th, 2008

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Because cats are like that, Veena grabbed Trever's sock as he was trying to put it on. A chase, of course, ensued. When it looked like Trever had the cat cornered he made grab for her and found nothing. Looking around he discovered Veena sitting on the bed, with the sock.

She looked highly pleased with herself.

"That can't be right..." he muttered. "I could have sworn..."
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Jun. 18th, 2008

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patient: Trever Delvar
partners: Tobias and Kale
Fandom: Star Wars OC

Jun. 14th, 2008

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[12.2] How well do you think you know your partner?

Not very well.

Tobias is a complete and utter mystery to me. I don't understand him. He's completely... selfless. I mean, I'd say it was because he's a Jedi, but dad's a Jedi, and he's not like that. Maybe he feels guilty about ... Or maybe he's just like that normally. I dunno.

Also, we don't have a Force Bond. Tobias makes them as easy as sneezing apparently, but we don't have one. Which is also strange.

He doesn't think he has to say he loves us.

He loves me.

I don't know why. I've been horrible to him. I nearly got him killed. Several times. I've tried to kill him. But he still loves me. Part of me wonders if it's because he loves Kale and sees me as just another part of him. But the other part of me says that he loves me for me.

He sees hope with us.

Patient: Trever Delvar
Partners: Kale Delvar, Tobias
Fandom: Star Wars, Ocs.
Word Count: 190

I have no idea what that means.

He'll never say. Or at least, I'm too scared to ask him.

But he'll always be there.

Unless he goes out and gets himself killed. If he does, I'll kill him.
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[11.1] How do you respond to feelings of loneliness?


I never had to think about that one until recently. I never was lonely until Kale got cut from me. We were always together. If not physically, mentally. Always connected. Now. Now... I don't know. Badly I think.

Violently at first.

Went dark side again.


I don't know.

I just wanted to destroy the world, the galaxy for taking Kale away from me.

Now? I throw myself into things to keep me busy. Try to pretend like every thing is all right. Sleep with Tobias and Kale.

Even ...



I think ... I dunno.

I think I need to do something more constructive with my time.

Patient: Trever Delvar
Partners: Kale Delvar and Tobias
Fandom: Star Wars OC
Words: 110

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